i'm tired of fighting for everything i want. i just want it to come on a nice golden platter now. for this 8 months, i think i shall adopt this attitude (as lazy and as un-achieving it seems).

i used to want to learn to play the guitar. cos i think guys who can play guitars are sexy. grins. but now, i decided i'd rather just leave it for a guy to serenade me. grins. plus i love my nails too much. hahaha. i was just talking to my mum about what makes guys sexy (grins, you don't want to know how we ended up there), it was a bit disturbing, but rather amusing. anyway we/i decided that guys who could croon (not singing your lungs out), play guitar, or had those intense (i want to eat you up - this part i added) look, nice hands, chiseled jaw were sexy. ahahaha. i like eyes too. i've frightened quite a few ppl about my fetish with nice hands. melvin was rather traumatised by me i rmb.

scenes keep flashing in my head. to sit under the night sky, listening to the same ipod, and falling asleep like that. to watch tv together. to save the last slice of cheesecake for him. to watch him sleep. knowing all the flaws, and yet loving them even more. they seem so farfetched at this point in time. hah.

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